tbe2 ku rse idop ku kosong..ku cm da xde spe2 lg slain family ku..ku rse cm empty..ape smua nie??
npe ku jd cmni? mne silap ku? slah ke ku kalo tlalu syg pd someone? slah ke kalo ku nk tunjukkn skit rse jealous ku kt die?? salah ke ape ku bt nie?? cmne lg cra yg btul tuk ku tunjukkn smua tu??
skli maybe ku still leh bsbr lg..2nd time pon ku leh trime lg..3rd time pon ku still leh snyum lg..tp kalo da slalu cmne ku nk fake kn lg smile kt muke nie?? cmne ku nk thn ati ku dr skt spnjg ms?? cmne ku nk sumbt telinga ku nie dr dgr smua tu?? cmne????????
aku pon manusia, ade ati..maybe ku kasar, maybe ku xlemah lmbut cm pompuan lain..but still ku pon pompuan..ati ku xsekeras ati laki, ati ku pon mudah tluke, ati ku pon senang skt ngan bnde2 kck..maybe slame nie ku xnk tunjuk sbb ku xnk org pndg rndah kt ku..k xnk tunjuk sbb tu cr ku tuk yakin pd dri ku..but still ku nie pompuan, ku ttp rse bsaing ngan mne2 pompuan even she's my fren..my bestfren..ku ttp rse sdh ble org yg ku syg sanjung tggi kt pompuan lain..ku ttp rse tluke even ble dgr kisah lame die..even mulut ku ckp xkesah tp ati ku? tuhan je yg tau!
maybe org lain xphm lagu2 korea yg ku slalu dgr..tp mostly lagu2 korea yg ku dgr smuanye lagu2 sdh..even bunyi cm rncak tp mksd die totally psl broken hearts..xsmua org phm lagu2 yg ku dgr..tp tu cr ku luahkn smuanye..ku dgr sbb ku nk sorokkn prasaan ku..ku xnk org tau ku tgh sdh..ku xnk org tgk ku lemah..ku xnk org pndg rndh kt ku..
maafkn ku kalo ku lgsg xleh nk msk ngan lagu2 melayu..bkn sbb ku nk "kerek" pndai tp ku jnis pmalu..ku xreti nk shows prasaan ku terang2..ku xnk ble ku tunjuk smua org akn angkt kaki n tgglkn ku sndr..xsmua org suke ble kite nk luahkn rse ati kite..even ngan kwn baik pon..ku blh jd gud listener kt die..tp die xleh jd listener kt ku lgsg..die xphm ati ku..xde org phm ati ku..xde spe pon yg tau npe ku nie jnis sombong, npe ku nie jnis bdikari, npe ku nie jnis yg xsuke sgt nk bhibur or bkareoke cm dorg..bkn sbb ku pndg korg sengkek..bkn sbb ku pndg rndh kt korg..tp sbb ku xde kyakinan dlm dri tuk tunjuk prasaan ku..ku xreti nk bgtau org ape ku rse..smua org ingt ku jnis kerek, n sombg..tp deep down dlm ati ku nie..ku nk bgtau yg ku nie tlalu lemah tuk smua tu..ku xbrni nk pndg org sbb ku rse muke ku nie HODOh sgt! ku xbrni nk pkai bj lawa2 sbb ku tkut org ckp ku GEMUK..ku xnk g tmpt2 yg high class sbb ku xnk org pndg ku XDE DUIT! ku pk smua tu..tiap kali ku kuar ngan die ku akn rse smua mta pndg ku..dorg cm tgh ktawakn die sbb bpimpin tgn ngan ku sbb ku xlayak lgsg tuk die..die ade plajaran..ade rupe..ade smua package yg pompuan cr..tp ku?? ku xde pape pon..ku xlawa..ku stakat spm je..ku xde pape pon yg blh ku nk bgga kn kt dri ku..
maybe kalo org lain yg bndgkn dri ku..ku xkesah sgt..tp ble die sndr yg bt cmtu..ku btul2 xleh nk trime..bruk sgt ke ku nie?? hodoh sgt ke ku nie?? hine sgt ke ku kt mta org smua?? maybe dorg jijik tgk ku..maybe ku xlyk tuk spe2 pon..tiap kali ku kuar umah ku akn pk smua org tgh ketawa kn ku..smua org tgh bckp pls ku. smua org menghina ku..dri ku..kj ku..sbb ku xde plajaran..ku juz stakat spm je...juz spm..pe nk ku bggakn?? pe nk ku tunjuk kt smua org??
pe lg ku nk bgga kn?? ngan fizikal ku cmni.. ku jeles ble tgk pompuan yg bdn kck..comel..ku x..bdn ku xcm dorg..even tgn ku bsr cm tgn laki..kaki ku? size kasut ku?? sbb tu ku xkn g bli kasut ngan laki..ku malu tuk smua tu..ngan fizikal yg bsr cmni..ku btul2 rse thina..everytime he held my hand ku rse cm die sure geli ngan ku..tgn bsr..cm pegang tgn laki je..ble jln sblh die..ku rse die sure xnk org tgk yg die tgh jln sblh ku..sure die malu...sorry 4 being that kinda person...
sorry 4 your humiliation...sorry 4 being the worst thing in your life...sorry....
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