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Me_9mEi

9:08 PM |

9 mei...

genap 2bln aku ngan azim bcinta..2bln maybe jgka masa yg pendek..tp pd ku 2bln nie ckop pnjg tuk aku ngan azim..eventhough bru 2 bln bsame..aku btul2 sayang pada die..azim lelaki yg hadir dlm idop ku tnpa aku jgka..ku btul2 xsgka aku akn end up bcouple ngan die..dr awal jmpe die dlu aku juz simpan ati je ngan die...1st time jmpe die blk after 5taun tgglkn skola, aku da jtuh ati ngan die..tp deep down ku tau ms tu perhaps..juz perhaps die mesti da bpunye..muke cm die sure da ade steady gulfren..dr mula rapat ngan die ku rse happy sgt..ku rse nk sgt memiliki laki cm die as my bf..tp ms tu ku still malu lg..still xnk rapat cuz ku tkut tuk dkt ngan laki cm die..after a few months juz rapat as a fren..die mula nk dktkn dri ngan ku..time tu ku rse malu sgt..byk kali die cuba ajak ku kuar minum cuz die nk sgt jmpe ku..but still ku tolak mentah2..tp xtau npe 1 mlm tu kebetulan mak kj ptg so mlm tu ku kena amk mak, so ku kuatkn dri ku tuk jmpe die..along wif naz n wandy..mlm tu kali pertama after 5years ku jmpe die blk..skli pndg je die da bt ku jtuh ati kt die..n after dat ntah cmne ku pon xtau..ku ati cm terbuka luas tuk die..luas sgt...juz for him..then die came up wif an idea tuk g sagil..at first ku xleh ikot cuz wani xde..then maybe da tersurat yg ku akn g gak sagil..ku ngan wani same2 ikot g sagil..after that aku ngan azim kerap jmpe n msg everytime nonstop..day by day..ku mula syg ngan azim..mula jtuh cinta ngan azim..and i know he felt the same as i am..genap 9mac2010 azim xnk tggu lg..die nk ku officialy j awek die..and that how it happened..9mac..ku ngan azim declared as couple..pd mulanye ku cm xcye..even till today ku cm xbpe nk cye je yg azim btul2 syg kn ku..alhmdulillah..akhirnye ku jmpe jg ngan laki yg btul melted my heart..laki yg bt ku xleh tdo mlm..laki yg bt ku rse bhgia juz ngan tgk gmba die..ku xprnh rse prasaan nie after firdaus abd rahim..laki yg ku btul2 cinta tp tgglkn ku cuz pompuan lain..azim da 2nd person dat i wanna give all my heart and all my love..ku btul2 cintakn die..YA ALLAH..PERKUKUHKN LAH JODOH ANTARA KAMI..JADIKNlah die laki yg akn membimbingku ke jln MU..kasih n syg ku terhadap azim btul lahir dr ati ku..cinta ku..smua tuk azim..maybe ku byk kali permainkn prasaan org slame nie..tp azim btul2 da curi ati ku..

"abg..kalo abg bc nie..abg da btul2 jd org kdua terpenting dlm idup syg selain mak n ayh.."

31 julai..die akn tamat latihan as a policeman..ku harap die akn jd insan yg berguna..ku xlg harapkn die tuk kj dkt2 cni..ku akn redha kalo die terpkse btugas jauh dr ku..ku akn redha kalo satu hari die bkn milik ku..tp ku ttp akn bersyukur cuz die hadir dlm idop ku..at lease ku dpt rsekn nikmat bcinta yg slame nie ku xprnh jmpe ngan mane2 laki slps firdaus(1st love)..

ku ttp akn bersyukur cuz after this maybe kalo die bkn jdoh ku..ku xkn jmpe lg ngan laki yg blh bt ati ku sntiasa happy juz by looked at his picca..azim..kau la cinta yg ku cari slame nie..aku syg kau lbh dr dri ku sndr..ku cinta kau tuk slamenye...

8mei..dr pg till this time..da 3kali azim called ku..i guess he must be really miz me a lot..ku pon miz him so much...ku terharu sgt..cuz even die kt sna..die ttp xlupekn ku..die ttp ingt tuk call ku..die ttp xlupe tuk sntiasa ucap "I LOVE U SAYANG, ABG RINDU SAYANG"..these two words yg btul2 bt ati ku xleh tdo kalo sehari xdgr..prnh sblom nie ku rse cm xbmaya sgt cuz dr pg till mlm ku tggu die call but xde panggilan pon dr die..till ku rse lemah n xbermaya lgsg..ku resah, gelisah smpai xlalu nk mkn, nk bgn pon xleh..nk on laptop pon ku lgsg xde ati..and then ku tgk jam..da kul 9.30mlm..he wont call..die xkn call mlm nie..da nk kul 10,,die xkn leh call lg..n ms tu ati ku cm hncur..but the time ku da nk give up..he called! he did called..juz to say i love u syg..he called juz to hear me..juz to called me syg..ku btul2 tharu sgt..abg..thnz a lot...die da jd punca semangat ku tuk truskn idop ku..ku pasrah kalo psni die kena posting jauh..but juz hearing his voice makes me feel so alive..thank you abg..thnz for lite up my life..thnz cuz hadir dlm idop syg..i really love u..and THANK YOU ALLAH CUZ GIVING ME THIS SPECIAL PERSON TO ME..TERIMA KASIH KERANA KAU TELAH PERTEMUKAN AKU DGN DIA..

ALHAMDULILLAH.....

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mE_MizHim

12:15 AM |

it's been a week since abg left me..aku btul2 rindukn abg..hanya ALLAH je yg tau cmne prasaan ku skunk nie..
YA ALLAH berila ku kekuatan tuk aku mengharungi smua nie...aku btul2 rindukn abg...aku xprnh rse cmni sblom nie..ku btul2 rindukn abg tiap2 ari..even ku xleh tdo kalo xde selendang yg abg bg b4 abg pergi ritu..b4 he left..he gave me the selendang..he told me to wear the selendang everytime when i miz him...and ku bkn juz pkai selendang tu..ku even tdo ngan selendang tu..ku btul2 rindukn die..npe ngan die ku jd cmni??? maybe he is the rite guy 4 me...ku btul2 xtau ape yg ku fikirkn skunk nie..npe life ku cm mendatar je..everything seems same je..xde prubahan lgsg...ape nk jd ngan ku nie??? smpai ble ku nk miz him like this?? skunk nie maybe die g 3bln je..cmne nnt ble die da kuar?? die kena lapor dri kt tmpt jauh2 lak?? cmne kalo die kena kj kt sbh swak?? kedah ke cm yg die nk sblom nie?? aku tau deep down dlm ati die, die mmg nk g kj jauh..nk cr duit lbeh..nk cr pengalaman..ku phm tu..ati laki xmcm ati pompuan juz nk duk kt safe zone je..ku terfikir kalo die kena kj jauh nnt lg r..xkn ku nk nggs ari2?? xkn ku nk cmni je trus2?? smpai ble?? mmg seksa merindui someone..tp ku leh bt ape je?? kalo die nk g jauh??
smlm ku borak2 ngan naz..cite psl abg..dorg mmg bezfren..even naz pon rindu gile kt abg..huhu rmai org yg sygkn abg..ku rse dri ku nie cm kck sgt nk bndingkn ngan dorg..dorg lg lame knal abg, lg lame syg abg kalo nk bndgkn ngan ku nie..kdg2 ku rse cm ku nie xlayak lgsg tuk abg..tp the wat he treat me..the love that he shown me..ku rse bhgia sgt..ble da bjauhan nie bru ku nmpk yg die mmg syg kt ku..
skunk nie ku kena kuat..even tiap kali abg called die xprnh putus2 pesan kt ku,"jga dri leklok,abg kt cni xlame,3bln je..ingt abg slalu"....ayt yg die xprnh jemu2 tuk bgtau ku tiap kali die called..3bln...what a long period tuk aku harungi sorg2...
even taun nie pon ku ttp xdpt nk smbut bday ku ngan org yg tsyg..even ku mmg xprnh pon smbut bday ngan org yg tsyg..dlu ms ngan pdaus pon..juz leh wish2 je cuz die jauh sgt..after him..da xde spe lg..it's been 3years ku smbut bday xde bf..tp taun nie pon ku ttp smbut bday sorg2 cuz abg xde kt cni..even bday abg pon ku xdpt nk smbut ngan die cuz die kt dlm tu..blm tntu lg leh dtg lwt...what a life.......

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yOu_aND_i

3:58 PM |

NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS

EVEN WHEN THE SKY IS FALLING DOWN

I PROMISE U THAT I'LL NEVER LET U GO

YOU, WHEN I FALL DOWN

WITHOUT BEING SHAKEN, WITH YOUR STRONG EYES

YOU RAISE ME UP

AND YOU, WHEN I BECAME WEAK

AND STOOD ON THE EDGE OF THE CLIFF

YOU WHO COME TO ME

AND HELD MY HANDS

I COULDN'T DO ANYTHING FOR YOU

SO I'M MY MISERABLE SELF BUT TODAY, FOR YOU

I SING THIS SONG

TONIGHT IN YOUR TWO EYES

I SEE THE PAIN YOU'VE BEEN HIDING FOR ME

BEHIND THAT SMILE

YOU AND I TOGETHER, IT JUST FEELS SO RIGHT

NEVER SAY "LET'S SPLIT UP"

WHATEVER THEY SAY, I'LL PROTECT YOU

YOU AND I TOGETHER, DON'T LET GO OF MY HANDS

NEVER SAY "GOODBYE" BECAUSE

YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE FOR ME IN THIS WORLD

LIKE SO MANY PEOPLE

OUR LOVE WILL GRADUALLY CHANGE

BUT PLEASE DON'T BE SAD

SO YOU CAN TRUST IN ME, LIKE A GOOD OLD FRIEND

SO YOU CAN LEAN ON ME

I PROMISE YOU THAT I'LL BE RIGHT HERE, BABY

I COULDN'T DO ANYTHING FOR YOU

SO I'M MY MISERABLE SELF BUT TODAY, FOR YOU

I SING THIS SONG

TONIGHT IN YOUR TWO EYES

I SEE THE PAIN YOU'VE BEEN HIDING FOR ME

BEHIND THAT SMILE

YOU AND I TOGETHER, IT JUST FEELS SO RIGHT

NEVER SAY "LET'S SPLIT UP"

WHATEVER THEY SAY, I'LL PROTECT YOU

YOU AND I TOGETHER, DON'T LET GO OF MY HANDS

NEVER SAY "GOODBYE" BECAUSE

YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE FOR ME IN THIS WORLD

WHEN THE LONELY NIGHT COMES TO ME

I CLOSE MY EYES SLOWLY

WHEN YOUR BREATH EMBRACES ME

I'M NOT AFRAID OF ANYTHING

NO ONE ON THIS WORLD

CAN REPLACE YOU

YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE AND I'LL BE THERE FOR YOU, BABY

YOU AND I TOGETHER, IT JUST FEELS SO RIGHT

NEVER SAY "LET'S SPLIT UP"

WHATEVER THEY SAY, I'LL PROTECT YOU

YOU AND I TOGETHER, DON'T LET GO OF MY HANDS

NEVER SAY "GOODBYE" BECAUSE

YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE FOR ME IN THIS WORLD

JUST YOU AND I

FOREVER

AND EVER..

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mE_tODay

2:51 PM |

3rd may...

another day without abg..ari nie..ku bgn ngan prasaan yg kosong..terfikir cmne la abg kt sna..slalunye b4 tdo kitorg akn call n sometimes ku n abg akn bgyut n bcite smpai 2-3pg..but now..masing2 tdo without wishing goodnyte n telling each other that we love one another..skunk tdo pon cm xde mkne je..juz melelapkn mta yg kepenatan seharian...

ku mulakn ari ku cm biase..g kj, blk kj..tepat kul 12 td..rindu ku pada abg makin meluap2..ku rse rndu sgt..ku tatap gmba abg kt nfon..satu2 gmba abg ku belek...masa terus berlalu...aku tggu abg call, aku berharap abg akn call..ms trus berlalu..tepat kul 1pm....nfon ku kaku..xde sebarang tnda incoming call...ati ku tersentak! npe abg xcall lg?? smlm exactly this time abg called..ku cuba pujuk ati ku..maybe abg bz ngan jadual kt sna...ku terus pujuk ati ku even deep down aku kcewa sbb abg xcall..tp bkn salah abg pon..aku yg emosi bkn2.

tepat kul 1.00pm..ku drove back home..on the way ku pasang lagu2 yg abg bg kt ku...kristal_nurani..abg prnh nyanyikn lagu tu kt aku..n he even tkr lirik lagu tu dr nurani jd nurain..ms tu ku rse abg nie ntah pape ntah..tp skunk bru ku trse yg abg sbnrnye da lame tunjukkn keikhlasan die pd ku..juz aku je yg xnmpk2..aku je yg slalu sgt nk uji n ragu2 ngan abg..air mata ku jatuh lg...abg...thnx 4 sang that song for me b4...i love it..

sepanjang jln ku perhatikn nfon..mne la tau abg call..tp still...xde pon call yg msk..aku terus drove smbil nyanyikn smua lagu2 abg..even xpndai ku ttp nyanyi jg..cuz ble ku nyanyi lagu2 tu ku rse tenang..ku rse dkt ngan abg..ku rse abg ade kt sblh ku..then ku stop kt pam myk..after isi myk ku msk keta..alangkah terkejutnye ku..nfon ku berdering...abg!!!! abg call!!!! aku cpt2 angkt..rupe2nye abg da 3kali call ku..kalo la ku lmbt td..sure ku xdpt dgr suara abg..ku cuai btul..nyaris2 ku terlepas call abg td...ku rse ati ku cm idop kmbali ble dgr suara abg..ku rse happy sgt..ku btul2 happy..abg call..tepat kul 1.37pm...abg bgtau 31july tarikh abg tamat latihan..ku btul2 teruja cuz abg srh ku dtg tgk die kt sna..abg kate ku wajib dtg.."i will abg.. i will be there.. i will be there to see u..to meet u..kalo blh syg nk peluk abg nnt"..sayunye ati ku ble pk yg abg btul2 cintakn aku..thnx abg..i love u too...

ku da plan..n ku akn bncg ngan mak..ku ttp nk g nnt..aku akn apply cuti 4 that day..ku nk g amk abg nnt..ku nk ajak wani,naz, n wandy tuk ikot same..even kalo blh ku nk abg blk ngan ku nnt..mak ayh die xyah ssh2 bwk die blk..huhu maybe agak melampau kot..tp pape pon..ku ttp nk ade kt sna nnt..ku nk tgk abg..ku akn mark kn kt calendar nfon2 ku, ku akn mark kn kt dalam ati n ingatan ku tarikh tu..ku nk jmpe abg..abg..i love u...♥♥

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mE_LoVInGaBG

1:17 PM |

it's been a day after abg left me..and aku still menanti n menghitung hari bila abg akn blk..sound crazy but tu la aku..bila aku btul2 sayang n cintakn someone..aku akn sentiasa setia pada org tu..ari nie aku mulakan ari ku ngan rutin2 harian ku kalo x kj..smbil2 bt kj umah ku terfikir cmne la keadaan abg kt sna, da breakfast ke abg pg nie? abg mesti byk aktiviti kt sna..smlm ku kuar ngan akk n mak ku g jj..akk nk bli brg..at 1st kitorg singgah kt kdai crmin mata..aku lgsg xhiraukn pape pon smlm..ku sibuk msg ngan wani tntg prasaan ku lps abg pergi..tbe2 ku xsedar pon air mata ku mengalir kuar..ku sebak ble pk kn yg abg xde lg kt ku..smua yg ku bt aku mesti teringt kt abg..even nk kuar kt dpn umah pon ku sure terbygkn keta viva putih kt dpn umah ku..abg anta n amk ku blk kj, anta ku blk lps ku accident, aku terbyg2 abg tiap kali ku nmpk keta viva putih..dlm ati ku berdetik, "mne abg nk pergi tu?" ..ayt yg ku slalu bgtau kt abg ms kitorg gurau2..even ble ku tgk laki pkai bj putih ku ttp teringt kt abg..abg suke pkai bj putih..abg.........................

smlm ms kt jj, akk n mak sibuk gurau2 ngan kwn2 mak tp aku..xblh nk angkt muke aku pon..aku xnk mak n akk ku nmpk mata ku yg da berkaca sbb thn sebak..tp ble mak tnye ku bgtau yg ku skt perut..n mak juz diamkn ku, maybe mak phm yg ku tgh bersedih sgt..tbe2 smlm no kl nek kt fon.."abg call" ..ati ku berdetik..ku cpt2 pick da call..mmg abg...skli lg air mata ku menitis.."abg...syg rindukn abg"...syup2 ayt tu kuar dr mulut ku..ternyata abg pon rindukn aku..walaupon beberapa minit je tp ati ku puas dpt dgr suara abg..suara yg ku rindu..suara yg slama nie xjemu2 bt ku bhgia...thnx abg............

aku bgn je pg td..ku tgk nfon..sbb slame nie ble bgn je ku tau abg sure akn msg ku..ku perhatikn fon ku tiap ms...kalo2 abg ade call..jauh kt sudut ati ku, aku tau abg bkn blh call ku slalu, nfon abg pon bkn ade pd die sentiasa..tp aku ttp mengharap....tepat kul 12.48tghari ku tgh asyik dgr lagu2 kegemaran abg..tbe2 fon ku berdering.."abg call!!!" ku rse bhgia sgt...abg call lg...alhmdulillah..abg still ingt ku...aku terharu..abg btul2 syg ku..

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Me_LoVEhiM♥

1:33 PM |

KADANG2 ALLAH SEMBUNYIKN MATAHARI, ALLAH BERIKN PETIR DAN KILAT..KITE TERTNYE2 MNE PERGINYE MATAHARI..RUPE2NYE DISEBALIK PETIR DAN KILAT SEMBUNYINYE PELANGI YG CNTIK TUK KITE SMUA..

7.18 pg..ku terjga dri tdo..1 mei tarikh yg maybe a very meaningful to others..especially to dya cuz ari nie bday die, tp pada aku ari nie permulaan tuk 1 perkara yg ku rse btul2 membwa seribu 1 makna dalam idop ku..ari nie abg pergi melaporkn dri kt PULAPOL..he'll be gone for 7 months..and i'll be waiting for him every second that count..he'll be the last man for me..and i promise that..

before he left, he keep telling me to take care of myself, dun be so naughty when he's not around..i dun understand why he keep repeated that phrases..all and all again.."jga dri leklok syg, jga mkn syg, kalo skt g klinik, jgn nakal2 k" he keep repeating that..he wont cry eventhough he's eyes telling me that he's crying in inside..he tried the best to not showing me that he was upsad about leaving me here..he sang me songs yesterday, but i couldnt held my tears..it juz coming out..i was so sad..i dun wanna let him go..

i did something unexpected yesterday, i hug him, he didnt expected that one coming, he tried to let go of me cuz he was afraid that people might saw us, but i couldnt let him, then he hold me tightly in his arm..he tried to calm me..but my tears keep falling down..then he whispered something to me.."abg syg syg..abg cintakn syg.." he kissed me..he wiped all my tears, i felt so touched bt that. but now he's not here with me anymore, he wont be here to wipe all my tears, he wont be here to hold me n kiss me again..he wont be here to kiss my hand like he always did everytime we went out for dating..

the look on his face tells me everything, he was so worried, worried about getting to PULAPOL, worried about the training, worried about leaving me here..abg mmg btul2 xnk tunjukkn smua tu smlm..tp aku phm deep down die mmg tgh risau sgt psl smua tu..

selama abg knal aku, die da byk brubah, abg x mcm dlu lagi..die da x bt smua perangai lame die lg..abg prnh bgtau aku semenjak die knal aku, die da byk brubah tuk aku..die bt smua tu tuk aku..die cube tuk jd yg tbaik tuk aku..2 hari sblum abg pergi, ku ade msk kn spageti tuk die..kami mkn same kt pntai.. on the way g pntai die bgtau aku 1 cite psl kwn die yg alim,encem,kya tp ciri2 wanita yg kwn die cr bkn sesempurna die..tp sorg pelacur..ms abg bgtau ku cite tu ku tbe2 tersentak, ku terfikir ape yg abg cite tu mmg btul2 msk akal..actually abg cite tu tuk dri die..die nk bgtau aku yg walaupon die dlu xbaik, truk, tp die nk aku tau yg die blh brubh tuk aku..even die mmg serba sikit da pon brubah..

Smlm ku mnx list2 lagu die..btul ckp abg..kalo rindu die ingt n dgr la lagu2 die..ble ku dgr lagu2 abg ku rse die dkt je ngan aku..aku rse die ade ngan aku..smlm ms abg nyanyi kn lagu tuk aku..aku btul2 xleh nk thn air mata aku, nk2 lg ms abg nyanyi kn ku lagu tiada lgi by amy search..ku rse pilu sgt..tapi aku ttp nk tujukn lagu pergi by aizat tuk abg...lagu tu btul2 citekn ape yg ku rse kt abg..abg la irama terindah yg xlagi ku dengari...

abg..kalo abg bc nie..syg juz nk abg tau yg syg tggu abg kt cni...i love u abg ♥

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